future

in two and a half years i will be going to college. i at least know that for sure. but i dont know what im going to learn what profession im going to go into. what major im going to have. i really dont even know what college im going to. it freaks me out. i have no idea what i want to go into or even where to start i have many things i love but which one do i want to do all my life. i dont want to sit in an office all day and hate waking up going to work every day i want to love what i do. and think of all that i only have two and a half years to at least sort of know what i want to do and i have no idea

life

im going to live about 75 years? to me sounds like a long time but really its nothing and in that 75 years what am i supposed to do? what is the point of my life? what will i contribute to the world? if i didnt exist would anyones life be changed? what if i die young short of the average lifespan will i have acomplished what god wanted me to do? and with the time i have will i make it worth while? when i die will i be happy with the life i have. i dont want to die the kind of person who has no one to care for them. tied in their work not really happy. im scared about what kind of person i will be and who s life i changed if any.