past future remembered past future then think

you know when you meet a new song. you say hello have a few great conversations maybe even see each other everyday then you just lose touch. Then one day you go to wal-mart and all of a sudden there they are and it brings back the feeling you had in that period of time in your life. it is amazing. it really makes you think about the person you once were. the pure innocent thoughts you once had. it makes you want to be like you. because lets face it you are not who you used to be. but the question is can you be who you used to be. can you get through the things you went through in that time period to finally become a better you. do you even want to go back? are you happy with who you are? do you like yourself better? my god who am i?

fake empire

Stay out super late tonight
picking apples, making pies
put a little something in our lemonade and take it with us
we’re half-awake in a fake empire
we’re half-awake in a fake empire

Tiptoe through our shiny city
with our diamond slippers on
do our gay ballet on ice
bluebirds on our shoulders
we’re half-awake in a fake empire
we’re half-awake in a fake empire

Turn the light out say goodnight
no thinking for a little while
lets not try to figure out everything at once
It’s hard to keep track of you falling through the sky
we’re half-awake in a fake empire
we’re half-awake in a fake empire

my goodness this makes me think

twin dancers

you know you have the best friends in the world when your friends want to come over just to talk and well dance. i have the two best friends in the world, they are determined to keep me in the light and for that in eternally grateful. ihave a serious problem which cause me to prefer to say home all the time. its called bookacitis. the only treatement is well them. i love them to death they are my happiest moments in life so far. who knew i would be so luckey

pray for the assasin

i read this book well actually i havnt finished it yet i cant do it i want to but something about it. the book is basked on the fact that muslims won over usa. so the country is really split and everyone is trying to convert or going to the bible belt or just staying moderate i dont know but the thing made me scream at the top of my lungs that there is no god. the book made it so silly and a matter of fact i guess its hard to explain but i said that and cried for hours it sucked. i believe in god but i quess it just got to me i dont really know what to say or think but all i wasnted to was say sorry to god. my mind keeps changing i know its just that im growing up but one minute im a complete believer ready to learn then the next im hiding away from him. it scares me

p and p

so over the break i cracked the whip and made myself read pride and prejudice. but it was amzing. yes it was slow going and you just wanted to stop reading for the rest of your life but then darcy walks in and you can feel the love between them even though one character doesnt know it yet it has a feeling of true happiness and it makes your heart believe in true love. if you read it and dont feel the same well then you have issues

house of night

i have read four complete books in two days. four 350 page books in two days. i know im a fast reader but that doesnt seem right. its not like a sat down and didnt get off my butt for two days i went sopping all day yesterday and had school today its weird i have no idea how i did it but they are amazing. i started reading them and was embarrased i was. they sucked the auther put in parathesis on the characters thoughts on things and it was like she was trying to hard to relate to us and trying to make all of us who read them better people by saying no to sex and such but then that stopped and it became this amzing world that i cant help not wanting to be apart of