where is a ghostbuster when you need one

what makes me me? my love for juice or my incredible obsession of reading cheesy teen novels or my love for non main stream music and my hate for the opposite? why is it so difficult fo me to open up to someone. i have a problem and it needs to be rectified. i can never bring down my great wall till well i either know someone for years they try hard to get to know me or well hats it. its very hard for me to let people in there is only two people who i have ever let in my brother and another certain person actually i lied there is three. that is sad. it really is i have so many "friends" who are not friends at all really just acwaintences who know my thoughts on food or sex i want people to get to know me i want it bad i just cant get the damn berin wall down i have tried bomb but nothing will do so i guess i will continue to tell people my thoughts on the perfect taco in hopes of someone finding me interesting enough to take some mean slime and take it down.