the post that is possibly longer than my post because there is really not alot of happy things kate wants to talk about or in reality cant think of

happy happy Kate. there are rainbows in my future happy happy rainbows and kitties and clowns and leprechauns dancing with satisfaction playing in the backround cause well who doesnt love that song any version its just like barney.

save yourself because you might die like the cat who saw me today

I'm pathetic its a poor me night bare with me. i have no accomplishments and i probably never will I'm ridiculously fat. cant even wear a swim suit without making 12 people gag. a cat died today did you know it saw me getting into my hot tub and had a heart attack can you believe it i cried for me and the cat I'm severely selfish all about me dont ya know. i decided to live in my basement for the rest of my life and friends oh god they are so overrated real friends are video games right now I'mMario but maybe once i have completed that i will move to the good stuff like cod or something redicously cool. also i decided to become a homeless wrench. well of course i will keep my laptop but sell it off for pocket change because really i will never get a job and hell i dont need one when you have nothing you dont need luxuries like showers or clothes being nude is the new me and hell if i starve myself for a few ears maybe my body will finally eat all the fat and i wont scare the little children. god maybe come find me in ten years and then you wont die . poor poor cat.

my new title they young bag lady who lives under a bridge but yet sill has 42 cats because thats just how life works

its official. my world will be as incomplete as Sookie st. James actually I'm worse she at least back backed through Europe and is married set aside hes weird and wants four in four years but still no I'm going to be like that girl who is on Britain's got talent. but then again shes better then me because she can sing. I'm as low as you can be living vicariously through my books yes my new name is Cary and I'm a shadow hunter and in love with Jace of course this will change and next week ill be kitty looking for love and hope in a garbage can stay tuned who knows

college is not coming around the corner soon enough but i will stay on the yellow brick road towards the wizard

i hate home. i hate that i hate home. i hate the thought that my only happy thought is being as far away from home as i can. as only one drove me do near crazy town now the second has driven the first to insane town which drives me to death. its really the only solution to my problem that or college so now the yellow brick road to freedom is brighter and shinier. the scare crow is quite nice a safe gard from the bitch of the west. shes evil but i wont give her my shoes i WONT! 

black is for death the more i think the better it is

easter was good it helped forgot about all else im now going to wallow in one of the dumbest books i have ever read thank you laurie faria stolarz

when sleep becomes the haven on which you cant wait to open the gates and jump in life is not going your way

im a pathetic hoe who has nothing real my god and i thought everything was going so fucking well. i need it i need something real. I HATE I CANT BELIEVE ITS NOT BUTTER. these 800 rants hopefully shall be gone when sleep comes and the realness becomes my dreams and peace shall come at last lasting on average eight hours

damn robots we all need help why cant you understand your path is not the way

why cant the girl in a fairy tale be the hero, the one saving the man. is it because man is an impossible task? are they always going to be eternally suborn and rather die than be saved so the heroin does not even try they get heartbroken and drink themselves numb while they sit and watch as the robot self destructs

rainbow is a game for those whos holes can not be temporaly filled with gentlemen

for now the gaping hole in my heart is being filled with gentlemen but soon the real thing will be needed and who knows when that day will come and if it does will i be dead before it comes gentlemen can only last so long. and i also don't think i can take the artificial stuff. no i cant believe its not butter i want to real thing give me a damn heart attack my lipstick ring shall only be to the love not the rape

the red marker has dried but again another is needed till the day of depression

another six months begins to count down i just got to the one day mark a few days ago Tuesday to be exact and now i get to start over anticipation is exhilarating but also a hard and cold bitch. so here i go one day at a time im going to have to buy another big red marker though.

the it i used to call friend

my old friend came back into my life again i really haven't seen or talked to it in well 7 months. And in reality its not really back only for a short time. on things we used to agree we cant stand the others opinion our backs are now unprotected the same commonness is gone and now we have nothing i found myself wishing for it to go back to the place i hated it having in the first place. time is going to go slowly and will be filled with many awkward moments why does things change

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people suck life sucks school sucks where is that one thing that makes life worth living i seem to have misplaced it.

day to day boringness

school is inevitable. You would think they could make it more fun or different daily. the same thing everyday is boring which makes everyday boring. one little schedule change in a school day makes the whole day better because its not the same as everything else. i love those days. but then i hate the days where all we do is sit there and listen to teachers who would most likely do something else. better for there time. i know id rather do something better than this. something is always better than homework this is pain. i need the sun on my face. grass beneath my feet where is summer i miss and need it i need something different.

pirates and hoes

i need a book. well i decent one. i have a book of course but its boring. its about this orphan jamie and there may or may not be this evil thing inside him and really i dont care if there is. the is no simpathy card. they didnt let us love the character first they just went ll crazy on us with pirates and hoes and so i just dont care i guess i never cared for him which makes me not care for the book or the author as well. she really sucks someone should tell her how to write a good book i have read some crapy books in my day but its just to boring to boring for my time but yet i find myself reading it becfause i really have nothing else. im dry i really need something i hate not having a book a watch reruns and that is a very bad thing

those laws i hope hang themselves for living a life no one wants except for the mama

they say we live in a free country well then what is the defintion of free. yes im not going to lie and pretend that rules dont help and he would be in complete chaos if there was non. also we would be miserable if there is to many but then dont call us a free country. daily rediculous people are coming up with rediculous laws and those are the things we have to pay for if broken everyday i feel like my options and my freedom are slipping maybe omorrow i wont be able to go to college unless i live in ethiopia for a week i dont know really but its rediculous how a man/woman comes up with something like being at home at 11 30 what gives them the right yes it tames down chaos but in reality curfew is perents rule what is going to stop kids laws are becoming more rediculous i hate them i hope to brake many of them in my day weird blog

cellphones will turn into mute children

one day teenagers will not know how to interact with other human being let along accept touch. we will become isolated with robots doing normal day things we will forget to write and 99.9 percent of us will become obese because we wont need to move aint that just a bright future for next few generations

where is a ghostbuster when you need one

what makes me me? my love for juice or my incredible obsession of reading cheesy teen novels or my love for non main stream music and my hate for the opposite? why is it so difficult fo me to open up to someone. i have a problem and it needs to be rectified. i can never bring down my great wall till well i either know someone for years they try hard to get to know me or well hats it. its very hard for me to let people in there is only two people who i have ever let in my brother and another certain person actually i lied there is three. that is sad. it really is i have so many "friends" who are not friends at all really just acwaintences who know my thoughts on food or sex i want people to get to know me i want it bad i just cant get the damn berin wall down i have tried bomb but nothing will do so i guess i will continue to tell people my thoughts on the perfect taco in hopes of someone finding me interesting enough to take some mean slime and take it down.

he aint got no power windows got no power bakes he aint got no power nothin but he got what it takes

so this book is well strange. these to people fall madly in love then they get in an accident he dies she live she is devastated but wait he comes back as an angel ah shit what a twist. but wait there is more his single mission in his angel days is to help her because some crazy mad scientist is after her and he has to save her or she will die but again wait what if he doesnt save her ion the non sieing sense well then they can half be together forever well at least untill she dies of old age or again wait shoud he let her die and meet her on the other side but if he never completes his mission will he be an angel forever! WELL WHAT SHALL HE DO? my god this book is so cheesy in so many levels but god it is so completly satisfying i shall get back o it now but wait i cant

stupid people and their appetits

i have told so many stories of my adventures in france that i really dont want to repeat i dont want to talk about what a saw what i ate who i met im sick of talking of my being in france im sick of thinking of france. i loved fraqnce i hope go there many times in ife and grow a liking to the food maybe i will like bread. but when random people ask you questions you already told people you actually know and like you dont want to repeat just for their curiosity. who cares about their appetit. well there was my random rant for the day/night. i want cookies hmmm

back to the future

i cant decide if my love for dance is either hanging by a thread or completly gone. I dance with absolutly no passion love and seem to always mark why work hard when you dont love it? i was always working towards a goal to minor in dance and major in business. own my own studio and live happily ever after with the perfect job. well now its not the perfect job . i would like to think now that i would be unhappy but as of now im unhappy with having no plans for the future. my future is completly blankwith a million turns and i have no idea with one i want to take. i have been getting all these emails and letters from colleges saying they want me but i look at them and get frusterated. which one will help me find my way which one is the best price. its to much to think about. so for now i will drown myself in a silly teen novel and live someothers life beside mine. their future is already written must be nice

past future remembered past future then think

you know when you meet a new song. you say hello have a few great conversations maybe even see each other everyday then you just lose touch. Then one day you go to wal-mart and all of a sudden there they are and it brings back the feeling you had in that period of time in your life. it is amazing. it really makes you think about the person you once were. the pure innocent thoughts you once had. it makes you want to be like you. because lets face it you are not who you used to be. but the question is can you be who you used to be. can you get through the things you went through in that time period to finally become a better you. do you even want to go back? are you happy with who you are? do you like yourself better? my god who am i?

fake empire

Stay out super late tonight
picking apples, making pies
put a little something in our lemonade and take it with us
we’re half-awake in a fake empire
we’re half-awake in a fake empire

Tiptoe through our shiny city
with our diamond slippers on
do our gay ballet on ice
bluebirds on our shoulders
we’re half-awake in a fake empire
we’re half-awake in a fake empire

Turn the light out say goodnight
no thinking for a little while
lets not try to figure out everything at once
It’s hard to keep track of you falling through the sky
we’re half-awake in a fake empire
we’re half-awake in a fake empire

my goodness this makes me think

twin dancers

you know you have the best friends in the world when your friends want to come over just to talk and well dance. i have the two best friends in the world, they are determined to keep me in the light and for that in eternally grateful. ihave a serious problem which cause me to prefer to say home all the time. its called bookacitis. the only treatement is well them. i love them to death they are my happiest moments in life so far. who knew i would be so luckey

pray for the assasin

i read this book well actually i havnt finished it yet i cant do it i want to but something about it. the book is basked on the fact that muslims won over usa. so the country is really split and everyone is trying to convert or going to the bible belt or just staying moderate i dont know but the thing made me scream at the top of my lungs that there is no god. the book made it so silly and a matter of fact i guess its hard to explain but i said that and cried for hours it sucked. i believe in god but i quess it just got to me i dont really know what to say or think but all i wasnted to was say sorry to god. my mind keeps changing i know its just that im growing up but one minute im a complete believer ready to learn then the next im hiding away from him. it scares me

p and p

so over the break i cracked the whip and made myself read pride and prejudice. but it was amzing. yes it was slow going and you just wanted to stop reading for the rest of your life but then darcy walks in and you can feel the love between them even though one character doesnt know it yet it has a feeling of true happiness and it makes your heart believe in true love. if you read it and dont feel the same well then you have issues

house of night

i have read four complete books in two days. four 350 page books in two days. i know im a fast reader but that doesnt seem right. its not like a sat down and didnt get off my butt for two days i went sopping all day yesterday and had school today its weird i have no idea how i did it but they are amazing. i started reading them and was embarrased i was. they sucked the auther put in parathesis on the characters thoughts on things and it was like she was trying to hard to relate to us and trying to make all of us who read them better people by saying no to sex and such but then that stopped and it became this amzing world that i cant help not wanting to be apart of